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PTSD (K.P.K)

MY SELFIE GAME IS SO WEAK LATELY WHAT THE H*CK

i love you all so much

i miss drunk summer nights so much
guess which thirsty bitch has mr. big inside her mouth!!!!!that’s right, it’s this one
ALSO I HIT 65 THOUSAND FOLLOWERS AND THAT’S SO UTTERLY AMAZING AND I LOVE ALL OF YOU SO MUCH THANK YOU FOR TAKING THE TIME OUT OF YOUR DAY TO FOLLOW ME YOU’RE ALL GREAT

I say, “I don’t like to be touched”

She says, “Your skin can’t remember
shit like that, you’re making it worse
by thinking about it”
but she’s itching her forearms and
I picture her imagining bugs

I say, “Even when I forget it happened,
my chest still burns in the shower”

I say, “Maybe water makes it hurt”

I say, “Maybe I’m just allergic to the soap
I use”

I don’t mention how he left his shirt
on in the shower, white and drenched
and sagging,

I don’t mention how he insisted
on washing my hair

She says, “Don’t be stupid”
and I wonder if this means
she doesn’t understand

I say, “Please don’t look too hard
at my body. I think he might have
left imprints of his hands.
I’m dry cement and winter makes
the cracks worse”

She says, “It’s been four years”
and I nod

I say, “I saw him at a party last night.
I think he tried to smile at me but
I couldn’t stand to see his teeth”

She says, “He really did a number on
you, huh?”

and I wonder if she’s even just a little
bit jealous,

because she wish she had the power
to matter that much,

and I wonder if she’s mad because
I refuse to let her,

I say, “I lost count”

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K.P.K


i was never yours // you made me sore // you leak from my pores (K.P.K)